My life in an instant

I am now entering my 9th week of living in a leafy village in rural Hertfordshire and I have to say, the area, plus having to walk everywhere (except for the odd irregular bus) has done my health the world of good. I have lost weight, enjoy the nature of the countryside and have even been adopted by a family of ducks, who recognise me approaching and all come off the river to greet me.

I have spent a few lovely hours in the company of two of my favourite people, the Kaplans and I have made new friends and been lucky enough to share some time with them in person or via good old twitter. I have been appointed a nursing team, who are very relaxed and will meet me anywhere for a coffee, so it feels far more social than clinical, although, to be honest, I am in the mind set of cancelling time with them as I have enough reminders.(monthly life insurance bills tend to do that trick)  I also have a couple of visits planned by some lovely people to look forward to :)

Started making chocolates for two charities, 'One Voice' who help with Domestic Violence and Target, who specialise in Ovarian Cancer. Both of which I hope go really well, for obvious reasons and I hope my twitter friends support by ordering some of these chocolates from One Voice @EveThomas40 and @GeorgianaMay. I have also been involved in something very exciting on the cooking front that will become apparent by the end of the year :)

Then, well then, nothing. I appear to have lost so much as well. Not being allowed my dog, who was with me daily for 6 years is hard. Originally thought she was going to be 8 miles away from me and that I would see her a few times a week but she is actually 87 miles from me with my daughter, who will still not even speak to me, never mind see me. I did get a series of angry texts 2 weeks ago but that is it. I cannot blame her and in fact never would.

On top of that, I have gone from regular daily contact and long conversations to lucky if I get a text or two from my best friend, who lives closest of all but has so much going on. Not that I am complaining, for without her, I would not be here but if I had realised the cost (not financially) I would have had second thoughts as her friendship and contact meant the most.

If anything, it has taught me to not become dependent upon anyone, not to become a burden and to make the most of what I do have. I wake up each day and smile at the world and the glorious things that nature has to offer me. It has also made me realise that when the time comes, I am not being shipped off to a hospice, I am more likely to get a single ticket to some nice remote location and enjoy.

Some people have said that some of  my blogs are hard reading, and I do not intend them that way. I  hope that they give people a little understanding of everyday life for me and that I appreciate it so much. So please ignore the negatives and if it interests you, enjoy the positives, for I am far more blessed than some :)

David xx